I drew the card to help me understand the flow of my day ahead – what was pulling in one direction, and maybe what was pushing toward another. At the time I was going through complete emotional turmoil, and this daily routine helped for quite a while. But then I found I was becoming more reliant on the reading, and also, maybe due to my psychological and emotional state at the time, I put too much onto the result each day. If my card was negative it would place me in an even worse mental state. I began to wonder if the mere act of drawing a card each day had such an effect on my own mood that it began to influence how I responded and acted during the day.
So I stopped.
I decided to take the power back and be in complete control of my day.
If there were rocky waters ahead I would deal with them when my ship inadvertently sailed into them. It worked for me. By accepting, and by not knowing, I found my life actually became easier. I lived in the moment.
Now, I know there will be regular card and rune readers who might be reading this thinking the cards do not tell us what will happen, they tell us what might happen if the current energies are followed unchanged. I know that. I guess I also knew that then, but I was, to be honest, too fragile to fight an already perceived enemy. I needed not to know. I guess I was going through a depression, and as anyone who either has depression, or who has been through it will know, logical thought doesn’t often make any difference.
So how do I feel about divination now?
I haven’t done it for a long time. I got stuck in the mind set where I told myself I’m going to do this, I’m going to give it everything I’ve got. I’ll meet the adversity if and when I encounter it, and I’ll adapt. I will be in control of my own ship and will take the responsibility if things go array.
But over the past couple of weeks I’ve begun to feel the pull to draw that card, to cast that Rune stone, or Ogham. I’m not sure why. Maybe I feel confident enough these days to know the truth behind the reading – that it really is simply an expression of things to be, if the current trend continues unchanged. My life has changed so much since those darker days. I just don’t think I was ready to truly understand what the cards were telling me. I was too squishy.
I’m not squishy any more.
So I plan to draw a card and a Rune every Monday, and see how it goes.
Today I drew the Otter card from the Wildwood Tarot, and the Rune Hagalaz. It might be a stormy week involving some real fun and games. As if I didn’t know that already, but thanks. What with the actual storms raging outside, and a house with a new puppy.., I think this could be quite an apt reading for the week.
Do you use divination?
Regularly, or just once in a while?
What do you believe it tells us?